RexTalk by Keith
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REX TALK, JULY, 2000
by Keith Torkelson
Re-harnessing the living energy
Slow now, slowly
Re-awakening the mind
To learn with endogenous structure again
The balance by
Professional mood-altering
We are less in control
Surrendering to the will of the Big Guy
Home
Becoming a productive environment
Safe
Comfortable
Relationships
The primary one with the primary woman
A reason to grow and give
To mature and live, to love
Reality testing intact
Yet, the Schizoid game is still afoot
The depression
And the rare anxiety
Hope, faith and trust re-born
Anger, intolerance and frustration passing
Helping ourselves
To eliminate, all but one
Three parts, unifying
The child (and his imaginary dinosaur),
the parent (playing a record) and
the adult (with newfound wisdom and reason)
All necessary
Is it best to meld them?
Not hungry
But, I need to land for nourishment
The FAA (Friends of Angry Actors) has grounded me
As my spirit takes to the sky.
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REX
Fall, 1989
Rex now knew famine.
Rex knows the felling of when you can't eat.
Starvation and emaciation.
If any of the fictional story about Rex survives,
may it be the Rex of the Fall of '89.
Here we had hell,
a walking carcass,
death on two legs.
One hundred and eighteen pounds
at five foot eight in height.
Enough!
The ketosis,
acidosis
and ammonia toxicity
tore up his CNS.
Rex was certain his spirit died this year.
Bad goings on.
It was like he was re-born
and didn't even want to remain alive!
Written by Keith Torkelson.
Reformatted 07-12-97 by Keith Torkelson.
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Rex 04-97
by KE Torkelson
Rex
Talk Rex talk
Rex happy, happy Rex
Green Rex, Rex green
What happened to white Rex
At rest, rest white Rex, rest
Girl pretty, girl, girl pretty
Nice girl, nice to TORK
TORK at peace with girl
Energy! extraordinary
Balance. Nice
What is her name
Elaine!
Sleep Rex
Rex sleep
Bye, bye
07-12-97
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REX TALK, JANUARY, 1997
by
KE Torkelson
I met Tom, a Haldol Man, like
I was
Haldol flattended me
And TorkRex faded to blue
I’ve been born again
Or it may be the first time
Mother Rex not kicking me
In front no motion
I’m following
Hopefully it will only take
one or two cycles to wean finally wean me for good
The med cocktailand no drugs
appears to be effective
When I look at a Haldol Man I
see how far I have come
Just for today I’m.....
Rex talk, talk Rex talk
Green Rex can’t or won’t talk
Too young
Should talk in a month or so
See Rex Talk, February, 1997
Rex talk with hope
Sleep Rex, eat Rex, listen
Rex
Clean Rex, live Rex
Rex says sorry to family,
Torkelson
Sorry, sorry Rex
Back in thirty cycles
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REX TALK, MARCH 1998
By KE Torkelson
Rex no wakey, wakey
Rex dreaming, imagining,
inventing
The Psycho Zone
The altered thoughts
They feel grandiloquent,
imposing, pretentious
They feel as if something
gargantuan going down
In the unreal realms
Those places that I only
glimpse now
Used to live there...
What of GOD, the Veritech,
Rex the Exterminator, the Annihilator
What of the man, Entropy, Mr.
Order, aLL, something, no-thing
What of “Earth the Mother”,
the pathologist, the kid, the girls
What of “splitting”, the
Devil, Thor, Loki and Kyrule
What of Ungoliant, Galaxis,
the Surfer, the Incredible Hulk
What of my hammer, the Ent,
that damn dog, the deadlock, born again
What of the anxiety, the
psychosis, the disease
What of “the quickening”, the
mark-red, the neutral girl, LSD, the film editor
What of the Lithium, the
Haldol and Godzilla
What of Luthien Tunivel,
Katy, Hansen DVM, the Class of ‘92
What of the big and little
clocks, Time, the Rabies Vaccine, my star
What of the beginning, the
middle and the end
What of zero degrees Kelvin,
flat-lining less than zero, and the “crack pipe”
What of “WaR”
What of the whales and
mantas, the psychiatrists and the meds
What of the Davis Nightmare,
Asgard and the Rainbow Bridge
What of Charley Manson, the
caldera and the large animal animal barn experiment
What of “the One Ring” and
Aquamarine
What of trees, the losses,
the gains
What of the “whole ocean”,
Aquaman and my final resting place
What of the buildings, the
concoction (psuedo-Koala Kooler)
What of the spice and JET
What of George, the
microwaves, the head-voices and the TV talking to me
What of “THE FEEL” and “THE
EYES”
What of “sounding” and mind
wars
What of the Mexicans, the
escape, the accident
What of the Map-coat, the
Action-jacket and the shredded pants
What of the red sweats and
the Asic’s lightening shoes
What of Craig Edward
Torkelson, Hades, dying and heaven
What of “the case”, the
Ripper
What of the pipe, cigars,
smoking and alcohol
What of the locomotive, the
light gun, the material mass, dependence and illness
What of the keto-acidosis,
anorexia and insomnia
What of starvation, the hot,
pot and sex
What of the general and the
shame...
All Rex says is going,
going...PAST
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REX
TALK, MAY, 1999
by
KE Torkelson
Rex
up, read, and ‘member
Luthien Tinuviel, the ‘magination girl
Iluvatar, god of all
‘magination
God of the sound of
music
Rex, saur of
‘maginaiton
Rex want,
need be with Luthien
She die twice
Congruent girt in mage future
After the passing, of Rex
Rex
wait longer, longer still
Kid
have faith
Tinuviel in fate, destiny
Kid wait still longer, long
God of kid faith
God Will,
knowing
Rex, kid, plus quiet pacific
slumber.
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REX TALK, JUNE, 1999
by KE Torkelson
Up Rex! @ 1999 Anno Domini
Up Rex! @ 4:00 Ante Meridian
A dinosaur in Heaven?
How can that be?
Uninvited
Or integral
Looking or leaving
The bad guy paid kid a visit
Back on the inside in a dream
Big, bad man
Hurt kid in thought; in the
physical
Kid tried and tried
Big bad man
Back on the inside
Hurt kid in feeling; in
spirit
Kid pivoted to science
Science didn’t work
Kid hurt self, didn’t work
Others’ good didn’t help
“TIME” did help
The dinosaur in Heaven?
Telling spirit(s) to ‘member
The Bad Guy
Still in there
Bad Guy still out here
Big Bad Guy God call
Exterminator
Now, the dinosaur on duty
For eternity -- now sleep kid
in Heaven..........
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REX TALK, OCTOBER, 1999
by KE
Torkelson
I awaken, uncontaminated and
brave
As well as the ferocious
animal
The beast of survival
Now, I’ve found “real”
imagination
Rex old boy, arrest it
You don’t know where this exercise
can deliver us
In-between
Lightness and darkness
That place where we are apart
Yet, the place where there is
god
Yet, the place where satin
comes to visit
...........for feast
None will befriend us on this
occasion
None can counsel us
The judgment past
Can I appeal it?
Did the chemistry, the gene,
the essence?
Did one of these ultimately
create you in me?
Or as our “real” imagination
clarifies
You where before, are now and
will be after
Though we must go to
ultimately pass
You will come to live again
Born anew
After, after and after, again
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REX TALK, NOVEMBER, 1999
by KE Torkelson
Rex--live
Some live, some pass
Police handcuffing
the dead-man on T.V.
Is law enforcement bonkers?
God said “Thou shalt not
kill”
Are they listening
As they hurt me and mine
As they kill
Then
Handcuff
The dead-man
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REX TALK, DECEMBER, 1999
By Keith Torkelson
The feel of frozen
The grieving place
Though I haven’t a use for
one
The feel of loss
The last kisses
The final, “I love you” by
two
The feeling of the end
The beginning
Finally the healing
Rex tell “me” what you’re
feeling
Own your feeling
For once in your time
The feel of greater and
greater pain of loss
The profound sadness
A shaper of my new character
The feel of life
The feel of death
Not as cold as you might
think
Rex be one with the lovin
Things lost and things never
had
Imagine and now create new
The feeling of courage
And this power to carry his
will
Out
Now I lay me down to sleep
In my dreaming I call your
number
1-714-530-1852
Missing you
See you
Your last son, Keith
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REX TALK, DECEMBER, 2002
By Keith Torkelson
December 17, 2002
Up, listen, my friend, my self, Keith, no Rex
Easy to tell now
There is no Rex, just a delusion in this passion play
Triads I say
Today
Just one way, me
Sad you I smothered Rex
But Rex cannot die
He died once
I was blessed with you
Rex
The saur who know few limits
Just a thing in my head
Just like anybody else
Reality, I scoff
The place Rex brings me
They are not real
Incongruence in people heads
Not a one sees the same
Not a one hears the same
Yet, you condemned me
You know Rex’s answer to you all
Jump, slash and burn
All I know as you better have called the big man right
But know you all Rex
Walk, keep walking
Because all time is now
Place you bets
I place mine on Rex
That is Keith-a-saurus to you
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REX TALK – APRIL 2000
By Keith Torkelson
Hey Rex
Turn your head around
See that big black
creature
That is your mom
Hey Rex
Want to hear the news
Well, “Here is the news
Coming to you every hour
On the hour (ELO)”
Survival of the individual
I’ve got a roof over my
head
I’ve got food to eat,
clothes to wear
A car that I own gets me
around
I can afford to maintain
and repair
The car
I have enough lust
I have some love
I have a few good friends
And I’m independent
Now with wide open space
In which to perpetuate
myself
A decision I get to make
I’m saying…
“Life at last”
I’m “coming to believe”
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REX TALK – December (9) 2004
By: Keith Edward Torkelson,
MS
I’m now a young dinosaur
Finding my “Inner Child”
And my name is … Rex!
His name is Kid
I see something different
every day
Been there in LA, I have
Trapped in South Gate
I now have my computer for
better or worse
My VCR is in storage
My university typewriter is
long gone
It is very nice having
WordStar, Word Perfect, MS Word and
Files to remember on
exogenous memory
I don’t see some things anymore
everyday
The people: Friends,
relatives, and lovers
Those that have … passed
I do not see yet feel you
You may be there: Your light,
your energy
Peek-a-boo. I see you
The Kid says: You are now a
sleepy Rex
I’m a scared, anxious,
frustrated – kid?
During the day I am a perky
Rex
Yet now in this starry
chill-filled night
I must exclaim
El gusto es mio or the
pleasure is mine!
Adios: For now my friend and
non-adaptive other
Fragmented!
Tortured in horror
Panoe terminalis or terminal pain
And the wrong nothing
Pleasure, satisfaction, and
purpose: May heal ALL …
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REX TALK –
FEBRUARY 2000
By Keith Torkelson
Up
Rex, awaken
Decrease
density
I am
lighter than air
I
know the factor that contributes
But
not how much
Laughing
again
I can
only take so much of this
Then I
am down for the count
Sleep
– while living
Without
the drugs and symptoms
With
others out and at home
A
home and a job and extra time
This
is
The
opportunity of a lifetime
A
faith – something bigger
Earth
mom – God dad
Order
and time
Not
perfection
And
some mistakes
Loving
Listening
Learning
Rex a
vivo
Meaning
alive or living
Keith
to adult
And
that lunatic
He is
on vacation
Sleep,
silent
Slumber
Sometimes
with another
Mostly
solo
Though
Good
news
Night
Rex
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REX
TALK – FEBRUARY 2001
By Keith
Torkelson
First
a close relative of mine says,
“You
write like dad.”
In
an attempt to be clear
I
muddle words
The
shock wave that introduced me to
Doom
Doomed
to more than 10 years
10
years of misery
A
pathetic man I was
So
much pain, so much suffering
God
forgive me for hurting
Others
On
the path to chance
A
chance I take and no sooner
Give
my newfound freedom
To
you
On
this
The
last day of
The
quickening
The
visions
The
delusions
The
players
The
planet
The
mother
That
last week
Of
vet school
When
I deluded that
I
was hundreds of things
Including
the headless
The
Viking
In
the last week of vet school
I
remember Dr. Duncan Mac Martin say to me
“Its
all downhill from here”
I
involuntarily veered to a road skew
From
that of my peers
I
am here
Now
And
I am grateful
In
as many ways as I am regretful
This
life of mine on God’s terms
May
he bless me infinity
Guide
me in all my actions
Action
of hope, faith, and trust
The
faith is fickle
That
fickle faith, Rex
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REX
TALK – FEBRUARY 2002
By
Keith Torkelson
Dear
God entity
I
From
roaming the streets
To,
I
An
illegal alien
“What’s
up with that”?
This
morning
I
Saw
the straight line
So
true that it pinged!
“On
the day I went away”
Goodbye
was not all
I
had to say
“I
want to come”
“Again
and stay”
“A
smile and that”
“Will
mean I’m there”
“Cause
I’ve seen…”
[Richard
O’Brien]
I
think best
When
I am lying down in
The
present
“Where
in the [universe] is
Carmen
San Diego”
“And
in the end
The
love you get is
Equal
to the love you
Send
[J. Lennon]”
Dear
God entity thing
I
feel my battery
I
need new cells
Maybe
a bit of glacial double A
I
mean vinegar
With
love
TORK…
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REX
TALK – JANUARY 2000
By
Keith Torkelson
Up
Rex its 4 AM
The
new day has begun
Today
is a day of celebration
I
am getting to change
The
placy of my bed
As
well as my material mass
With
thought and meditation
I’m
discovering that my parents
I
miss greatly
What
is new?
Their
passage was destiny
I
am looking under and over
To
find where they went
I
am still mood altering
With
caffeine, melatonin and nicotine
Looks
like there is going to be a change tomorrow
I
Grateful
for what I have
Freedom
to love
One
sleeps with me
Two
hold me
Nothing,
the entity, wants me
Looking
to give this morning
Looking
to share this morning
Looking
to love the whole day through
God
– my power greater
Higher
I
pray to thee
Please
uncomplicate this move
Move
of home
My
move
Away
we thee now
Awaying
to visit reality
Away
to once again
Land
Today
I
work
You
go hide or play
While
He sleeps
Once
again…
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REX
TALK – JANUARY 2001
By
Keith Torkelson
Happy
New Year Rex!
Know
you were a no-show
New
Year’s Day
I
invited chaos but order showed
We
went in me in and out together
Some
of the gang
Came
along
Big
G and J.C.
The
child, the parent, and the adult
My
imagination and creativity were gone
I
asked for help
And
got some
Not
too much, but just enough
I
wanted to cry
But
my eyes are barricades
Pain
and sorrow
The
girls, the pets, the people, the memories, the feel
Eventually
I found a balance
The
mind disease
Head
is out of bounds the program contains it
The
program can trigger the mind disease
And
using experience with my mind control
Constrains
the program
The
program says talk to God
The
mind disease capitalized on such a notion
Lunacy
Can
God really answer?
Can
we people actually have conscious contact?
The ground says no
What
of life without a high ones guidance?
A
serious problem?
That
is what life may become
God
are you answering my prayers?
I
know you have been
I
know I must let you
These
moments of pure freedom
From
the security and comfort of routine
Rex
Where
are you?
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REX
TALK – JANUARY 2002
By Keith
Torkelson
Rex, you are
dissolving
Into time
Into space
Into energy
I conceptually
survived!
The Red and the Blue
The Red, the hating
world
The Blue, the
chaotic world
Even the Green
The imagined world
I conceptually
survive
Am I real?
No
Am I part of divine
plans?
Do not even go there
I cognitively
survived
I am imagined from
imaginary observations
I have no spirit
I haven’t a heart
I am an essence
A timeless dimension
Am I a success?
Not by Darwinian
theory
In actuality I am a
partial success
Cause I survived in
this
The physical plane
I am coming back
With hope
The energy
The mass dimension
The velocity
All still quite
unpredictable
I rest still
Not to burn out
I survived on paper
Rex,
I gather you are
here, back,
And happy for the
moment
Rex, you content
Hi Rex,
What is up?
The baby Blue
No baby Blue
Now pink and in The
Plan
How can I be a
success?
By just surviving
I have participated
in The Plan
The Cause
I have induced
positive changes
In others
Ever so slight may
they have been
I think different
A bit
I talk different
A bit
I walk different
A bit
Is that enough?
A bit?
Yes I claim.
I believe that if
you induce a
Smidgen of order in
another
You qualify as a
Mover
A shaker
I survive and
instead of shaking all the time
As I have
I attempt sometimes
with success to move
With love
Though love
Is not in the Rexi
Vocabulary
RexTalkJune2000 V2024
REX
TALK – JUNE 2000
By Keith Torkelson
Got to find out!
“I will find out (P. Gabriel)”
Rex
What is going on?
Want to know what I am up to today
Read a good story
On depression
It was can
“Better to burn-out
Than fade away”
By Stevie Ray Vaughn)”
Dinosaur
It is humid and hot as heck
Today
We are just passing
The anniversary of my
Mother’s passing
I might get adopted, Rex
Who knows?
I am praying every day
That I am doing the will of
The God
Yet, Who knows, Rex?
Christobol and the man may
Found The Kid
Apologized
And sent to
Heaven
Whence he came
For protection
Wish him back at times
It seemed he was the only one
Who could rhyme?
I guess that it is
Rex with Tork
Without The Kid
Now it is Tork
Without The Rex
Now it is the blank of remaining paper
Is this really at all safer?
These get to-gethers with my maker
Blank paper
RexTalkJune2001 V2024
REX TALK – JUNE 2001
By Keith Torkelson
Rex,
In there,
Anywhere
Yes,
I don’t know if it is
Good
Anymore
Yet,
You are so quiet
These days
Are you just my imagination?
Here for my needs
Rex, you need me?
A medium for
Tapping
And modulating
Life
Your life, living the basics
Rex, are you imaginative
Like me
Yes
I am here with you
A slab lower
Than cortical
A section lower
Than limbic
You be Reptilian
We are born to catch, kill,
and eat
To sleep
To excrete
To feel a little
Regulate energy
To die
Let us eat
And sleep now
No lets sleep
Then eat
Night Rex
RexTalkMar2000 V2024
REX TALK – MARCH 2000
By Keith Torkelson
It
is very early
Now
This
morning
Rex
up
On-line
No
thinking
Yet
Rex,
I am
Mainstreaming
now
Work
2 jobs
New
med
Zyprexa
Zyprexa
person
Is
far better than
Haldol-Man
Recovering
Ever
so slowly
In
my home-safe-home
New
car
A
dependable way to get
About
town
Some
savings
Some
new people
As
well as the old
Good
roommate
Yet
I have had to give up
A
few old friends
For
health purposes
Hobbies
and health
God
I am beginning to know
Studying
for a test
Sleep
now
Big
test, big day tomorrow
Hey,
Rex your mom
Kick
you lately
Oh
wholly mackerel
RexTalkMarch2002 V2024
REX TALK – MARCH 2002
By Keith Torkelson
Rex,
Open your eyes
You are fed
You’re repro drive arrested
A side of the meds
Your fate hasn’t been written
You are determined to find
meaning
Discover the truth
Disprove yourself
With reflex
Discard the negatives
Yet, turn around Rex
See your mother
She is a big
Bad Black Rex
An extension of the School we
call
Earth
Your mom (Godzilla)
She means to give you a kick
Today
She’s roaring
Accept this rock solid nudge
Rex
When you know
Yourself
I become like others
I need this
Today
Rex
RexTalkNov2001 V2024
REX
TALK – NOVEMBER 2001
By Keith
Torkelson
I
beckon you
Little
Rex-a-roo
A
wondering dinosaur
You were
To
me once more
The
girl could find her needs
Her
needs not found
The
man couldn’t know
Couldn’t
meet
Sad
dinosaur
You
not too sad
A
taste of bitter sweet
Mr.
Rex
Will
you balance a life?
A
new life
Never
seen before
In
your heart and mine
Love
you Joanne
Love
you Kid
Love
you Keith
Know
you Rex
RexTalkNov2002 V2024
REX
TALK – NOVEMBER 2002
By
Keith Torkelson
Flying
high
I
be
Kid
What
you saying
Call
me you may
Anytime
Even
postmortem
Decide
What
you are needing?
Is
it me anymore
Rex
God
I
cannot call you evermore
My
schizoid brain
Healing
A
side of alcohol
Disruption
My
brain healing in one way
Dying
another
As
you Rex pass
Into
the past
Imagined
Deluded
Who
knows?
Your
address is looking like
It
says
Gone,
gone forever
Now
I am walking behind your mom
If
I fall out of sight
She
roars
I
know by ear
Where
I can find her
Yet
may never see her or you
Evermore…
RexTalkSep2000 V2024
REX TALK – SEPTEMBER
2000
By Keith Torkelson
Rex it is time
School has begun
All those youthful
minds
Yours also
Rex, do you want to
teach?
I do today
Rex, Do you have any
Reservations?
I do today
Rex, this is time to
get your
Feet wet
Many hours in the
classroom
Sub, student, student
teacher
Rex, your mind is
kicking
Rex
In the old mind
Or are in the new
To
Old ways
Or new?
Happy memories of one
of the elite
A vet student, a grad
student
An undergrad
Now it is time
To distill the best
To refresh
Revise and append anew
You can do this,
teaching thing
Rex, yet you can
Be The Little Professor
What 20-25 years
To built momentum
That mass times
velocity
Funny thing as you increase velocity
Mass tends to decrease
And momentum is fixed
Trivial huh!
What were the dreams?
Teacher, marine
biologist, veterinarian
Now to fit as a high
school
Teacher of science
A new career
For a new millennium
Are you having any
questions?
Rex?
Many you roar
Any answers
Some you snort
It is prayer time,
Rex
Rex, I know
I know prayers as well
as
all
this teaching stuff is not
in
your bag of tricks
Abate, Rex, your will
I need your POWER
Post-haste
AKA, now
Thanks a millennium
Times one thousand…
